When I was young, I would always get a beating for being bad in school and anything else I would do. I’ve been abused by my stepfather — he used to beat me with an extension cord. That made me even more bad, I was trying to prove him wrong but I’d failed again. I would still be bad. I was very stupid, he told me, I was a liar for doing bad things in my life and I started to believe him after awhile.
My grandmother only beat me one time with an extension cord. She hit me everywhere. I did not want her to ever beat me again. Then I started to act like I had good sense when I was 15 years old. My grandmother told my father to not to beat me anymore, he’s getting too old, she said, and he stopped. When I got to be 17 years old my grandmother put me out because I wouldn’t save my money. I had a government job with the sewage department. Then I left and went to stay with my mother for about 2 years, then I was on my own with my roommate. The first person who stayed with me was my best friend in the world, then his mother put me out, she just told me all I have to do is buy some food for the house. I said okay. I used to like my friend’s sister Vicky (I was in love with her, she was very cute. I would have married her. We also were very good friends. I would always give her what she wanted. I used to dress clean and appropriate — I wore fine clothes). My only sister was also named Vicky and I loved the hell out of her. She was taken from me when I was 3 years old. I wish to God I can see her before I leave this earth, then I can rest in peace. My mother only had the two of us.
I cannot judge people and they cannot judge me. Some people can be very nasty, even me, I can be nasty to Mom or I can be nice. The longest I’ve been clean from drugs in my life was 17 months. I was proud of myself. I can only thank God for that. It was hard for me to break things down in my life and I ask God to help me. He’s the only being above this world that can save me, no one else. I thank the good people in this world who support me and also Street Sense for being by my side. They understand what I’m going through in life. Until next time!
