Already there

When words fall short, when they can’t explain these days and times, the history being told becomes based on lies. I don’t want to think about all those innocent people who have died. I don’t want to say the anniversary of 9/11 was just the other day, my niece’s birthday. She was 10 then.
I can’t even feel myself breathe. My mind doesn’t want to think about the queen being dead. Long live the king. I can’t believe it’s coming up on three years of Covid-19. The president seems so old, Joe. I never met my grandfather, he lived through Jim Crow.
I don’t know, will the Republicans take the Senate? And why do people go against their own best interests? Voting is a funny thing, politicians telling me to fear people in need. It’s a religious thing. I have no heart to even sing a song, it’s been so so long.
I saw Jesus the other day, He told me the world could end any day now. I couldn’t even wonder about what I might miss, then I remembered that I’m already dead.