It feels like
eternal menopause
am I in labor
with the heat
contractions of hot flashes
I’m using my breath to
blow on the sweat
that’s dripping
this is my portable
air conditioner
cordless and free
HOT
is holding on to me
and your sticky candy
called skin
is touching me
my skin has a fever
it’s so hot
I see waves on top
of waves of heat
my smile melted
to a frown
the nameless one
came up
and all hell broke loose
negative energy
to the second power
I see ripples in the air
that looks like soot
it’s so hot
the pool feels like
a pot of boiling water
but I need to dive in
COLD
cold to the touch
if you touch me
you are definitely
not getting a rush
just smoke signals
yes I’m that cold
I’m a walking corpse
without the smell
I’m frostbitten
in places unseen
how do I defrost
my cold heart
maybe it will
thaw out with a kiss
warning:
my lips are cold
I say it’s from
eating ice
the truth is
I’m cold
I’m cold-hearted
I remember when it
all started
the only way you would
want me is if
you were immune
to the cold
there is a snow cloud
that follows me
rejuvenating my cold heart
maybe I can use
a heating pad
to appear warm
my thoughts penetrate
my heart
crying out deep
inside to escape
this cold place
can hearts scream
well mine did
and once your heart is broken
yours will too
