I have prayed and prayed for the day that I found me a real job with benefits. Well, I finally got one!
I haven’t worked, other than selling papers and writing, for 11 years. I’ve been here at Street Sense trying to maintain my balance — and it worked for me and my husband. But now I’m 50 years old and God has blessed me with a job with everything I’ve been looking for.
I prayed through this struggle, never thinking that I would get another chance at a real life because of my alcoholism. But I’ve even came a long way with that. You know, you’ve read all about “Me and My Recovery.” I’m not all the way together, but I’m truly doing much better with it.
I passed a youngin’ the other day out there laying on a cardboard box. He was about 30 years old. And I’m here to testify: Listen baby, where there is a will, there is a way. You have to keep trying. This COVID aint making it no easier for us.
When I was homeless and had nowhere to go, I slept in abandoned places. But I knew I wasn’t going to stay that way.
I used to panhandle until I ran into this guy that said to me, “If you can panhandle, you can sell Street Sense.” And I always wanted to write. So this paper became my passion, my inspiration. I never gave up and now it’s paying off for me.
The Lord takes you through steps because you are just not ready to begin a normal if you are not living right. You have to start from the bottom to make it through the drama. And trust me, it’s not an easy thing to do. You get tired, you get frustrated, you wanna give up. But in the end, you wanna survive. So, in order to do that, you have to keep up with it.
I just can’t believe I was given another chance to get it right — and I’m scared to death! But I’m not going to give up on me or my life.
Today, I wanna live. I wanna get better and I want my life to get better. So far, it’s changing for the best, all I have to do is keep up the good work. And you know how hard that can be sometimes.
Drinking isn’t an option for me, I have to not do it at all. So you know I’ll be busy fighting that devil that’s going to constantly stay on my back and harass me every day.
Today I hope someone is reading this and praying for me to stay focused and be good, and that God holds on to me.
Stay safe and stay clean.
