Content warning: This article mentions suicide.
It wasn’t until I arrived at Benjamin Stoddert and laid eyes upon the heavenly Starr that I was wowed and awakened to her loveliness, and thus #LOVESTAR was ignited and sparked!
It was a combination of our names, even if not a joint commitment and relationship, but I was down for a good run and attempt at it. We had a few run-ins of being in the same places at the same time outside of school.
My fashion wasn’t up to par back then so I had gotten a little down and depressed one afternoon and tried to kill myself by taking some of my mom’s pink pills. I’d awaken later only to vomit up the pills and I guess a new beginning!
I’ve been theorizing lately as I’ve been getting more acquainted with the Len Bias story. I’ve been trying to pinpoint my attempt with the timeline of his passing and it’s close. My feeling about it is you just don’t do good people like that! He was so promising! Spirit set free…
Here’s another component to my theory, the fact I only recently finally figured out what movie has haunted me with its memory though I saw it only once in my childhood. It was “Wonder Man.” and I never knew it by its name, but guess what the plot was? Twin brothers, one of whose ghost returns to possess his twin at times to convey a message!
Another occasion is the one time a shadow figure appeared on my game NBA ShootOut! He ball-hogged all the way down the court and dunked all on his own and all I could do was watch and be amazed at it all. I think the name showing said Aziz… something else. I had created ELVEST on there too by that time. I’ve noticed that no other Levester I’ve discovered has come up with any of the same variations of my name, perhaps due to a lack of the same circumstances and situations?
I also look at some of my lyrics like when I say “Sometimes I ball. Othertimes I fight. So won’t you put money up and watch me be like Mike!” Now I’ve been a very excellent street fighter but my basketball skills, as I might, have no hops, but Lenny did for sure! Consider Mike’s best competition or competitor torn down in his prime! As was Kobe who seemed like he was born to play that part at that level of excellence to fill a void left by Lenny! Even the way he departed was like mission complete! Mighty impressive spirit…
