I have been in a rut before. It was not good. That’s how I went to jail and lost my children, and my middle son got into the system. My oldest went to live with his other grandma, which was a good thing. He finished high school and now he is a student at UMC, a freshman/sophomore in college. I am so proud of my son.
He was diagnosed with ADHD and mood disorder at 5. I was so upset my son was in and out of the hospital dealing with his depression and dealing with his mood disorder. I was dealing with my own issues with my HIV, depression, being a mother, and going through different men and trying to find one who will be there for me and my children.
When my ex-fiance passed away from HIV/chronic alcoholism, he was only 27 years old. I want to learn to forgive people who have done me wrong, learn to accept things for better or worse, and learn to pray for people who hurt me. I want to learn to take care of myself.
How to learn to take care of myself:
Learn how to stay still.
Learn to take care of myself, for example, drinking tea.
Listen to music.
Buy something for myself.
Learn to go places.
Talk to someone.
